Since very long time i did not put my self into relationship after I have break-up with my love one. Maybe I still can't let go my past relationship. 4 years plus relationship just gone like that. Some people will think that i made that decision is stupid, some people will think that i am so kind and so care for other. I did try to change my self but i can't take it because this will be unfair to my other partner. Few time try to get into it, but still jump out from there.
Till i meet back one of my friend and i get some feeling on her, we know each and other for quiet long but did not make anything happen. Last year when i start to make a move to get along with her and my relationship at first get better and i can get along with. Been a hard time for me but finally i get to jump out and had a new relationship with her. Almost 2 month plus we started to have arguement and this is the first time i had arguement with my gf, for my ex-gf i never ever try before to had arguement with her. For this new relationship and i try to keep it safe by not arguing with her and hope we will have a better life when we are together. Time by time passing by i found something that is not correct wither her because she try to check on me every movement. That is good for a girlfriend who do that, this is to show that she care about me, but there is a limitation. She will try to call my bestfriend up and asked. See whether i am telling the truth or not. Is this the correct way?? Anyone can tell me this ?
I did tell her that i don't like all this thing happen in between us, I have tell you the truth and you doesn't trust me. We continue our relationship!! As time i was newly join in the Company and i have to work hard to achieve my goal and we can have better life. Nowdays i can't because i still have some financial problem but still can be handle just that i need to work hard. I work from day to night just to earn extra money for us. Some time i work till i am sick but i still work without seeing any doctor. Everything that will make her feel worried i did not tell her sometime is because i don't want her to worried about me and she is far far away from me. When she found out, she scolded me !! and i promise her not to do that again and i will tell her watever problem i had and she will help me to reduce my stress. Guess what happen next after i have change that? Problem that i am facing is becoming X2. She will give me more question for me to answer! In this relationship i get a nickname that i ever never think of it? BADBOY, Sound out by my family!! My Heart Break into Pieces!!!!! :( Guess what she even get to stay in my house whenever she is with me. When i said if i go to melaka where will i get to stay? Guess what is the answer? HOTEL!!!!!
What she do to me I try to keep it low and i don't want to sound out too much but i did tell her when ever she did wrong, but till now she don't want to change and she will try to find my mistake from my other friends, so that she can have the reason to blame me back as a BAD BF. I did not said that i am a good bf but i will try my best when ever she is with me. She will take something that really doesn't make sense to blame on me. Everyone know that i treat all my friend very good. But she willl think that i had some other relationship. If in relationship doesn't have trust, we can't work out anything more. Whatever i need to do, i have done it. This is the first and the last relationship between me and her. No friend, No relationship at all. I get to learn a lot of thing in this relationship. Thanks to her!
